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I’m pretty sure if you look up ‘exhaustion’ in the dictionary, you’d find my picture right next to it LOL For real though, I’m absolutely drained—been feeling this way for a solid two months now, really, and it’s awful because I feel like I’m not even running on fumes anymore. I keep chanting to myself, “gotta keep rolling til [things I’m looking forward to] happens!!” It’s kind of working but hooooo boy, it ain’t as convincing as it used to be ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Speaking of said things, I’ve been hearing so much about the backer-only releases about the new Mononoke movie and I am going to go feral. Please someone leak that shit I am BEGGING. I’m deeply unhinged about Kusuriuri, like literally words cannot describe how far gone I am about the guy lmao

Anyway, SMTV:V comes out in just a handful of days!! I had a lot of intentions to finish up my level grind in FFXIV over the next month but alas, I have been terribly lazy and unmotivated to even login for anything, much less leveling pains. So once that comes out I may or may not vanish off the face of the earth as I go into full grind mode to experience everything. The original game was such a letdown in basically all but terms of the battle system, so I’m hoping this fixes a lot of the issues I had with it (๑•̀ㅂ•́)و✧

I caught some kinda sickness a couple of weeks ago, it’s been miserable. I’ve still got a cough after fighting off a fever for a solid week. Is this aging. Is this the pain of getting old. I feel so weak. Give me back my wasted youth. Anyway, I’ve had practically no time to rest to actually fight it off (lame) and I’ve practically been chugging flu medicine to get by. May my liver survive the ordeal 🙏

You know. I was getting exhausted after cooking basically 4-5 days a week for like, 3 years straight. So my BIL’s family (moved in with us) volunteered to take that over and I was like, fuck yeah! But they make the most unseasoned white people food I have ever encountered. I’m pretty sure his mom cooked a pork roast in straight water in the slow cooker one night. I could not save that shit with any amount of seasoning. Monkey’s paw successfully curled, I guess. Like, bro, I’m depressed enough as-is and these miserable meals ain’t helping.

It’s not even officially summer but the weather has been scorching so much lately! We had a couple of 90∘F days. Because of the disparity between how cold it is in the basement and the main floor, my sister likes to have a bit of a fit over the AC being on… but it gets miserably hot up here, and there’s an elderly lady now to consider! My room alone tends to be a good 10∘ hotter than the rest of the house because it has practically no airflow and I do have my desktop in here, which doesn’t help… regardless, I know I’m gonna be miserable this summer.

I did a fresh layout on Killer Loop and I’m really fond of it. I decided to poke around with using grid layout to get it set up, rather than falling back on the junk I’ve been using since I was a teen like usual. I feel so much like a dinosaur trying to code these days; I know in theory you can do things so much easier than back in the day when we were just hacking junk together to work around limitations, but I am an idiot and it’s a lot to learn. One day I’ll master responsive layouts, but until then I am going to perish trying to search up everything each time I slap a layout together. On that note, I know I just changed up my main site like, this last winter, but I’m not really feeling it now and I want to do something a bit more clean. I need to hunt down an image that inspires me and go for it!!

It’s funny how ‘small web’ is having this revival with personal websites to fight against the era of social media, but then you get sites like Neocities where it’s still that. Everyone’s there making whatever site to appeal to the nostalgia factor (of which most of the people making these sites weren’t around to experience the heyday of personal ones). You can tell me it’s all far more intimate than socmed, but the fact that there’s view counts on sites and popularity sorting means it’s the same old shit you can find anywhere else, it’s just now people are able to flex some coding skills as they try their best to imitate the feel of ‘the old web.’ I dunno, it’s just weird. Even as far back as the earliest years of the ’10s you’d find people still crafting sites for themselves using things like freewebs (webs now I think? I ain’t keeping up with this crap).

Anyway. Someone revive more MP3 rotation-style sites with me. I miss those days the most. I miss finding new music that way!!